I'm sure many wife's and mother's know what I am talking
about with the above title. It can be
hard to admit that the person you once were has vanished and you are unable to
locate her. Our feelings are suppressed
by the millions of things that we have to accomplish in our daily life's. I know there have been many women that feel
as though this is their life and that is the way it will be from now on. But, to have this kind of outlook on yourself
and life is not healthy and here's why,
resentment. Over time, you will not
realize it, but that resentment will kick you right in your ass and you will
start to feel some kind of way toward the people in your life and affect those
relationships.
I know for me
personally, I was starting to accept that my life was just about my children,
being a wife and career woman. I failed to take care of myself, which is
something that we all have to do as women.
For many years, I was just going through the motions of everyday life of
raising my children, taking care of my wifey duties and completing daily task
that needed to be done within the home.
I did not realize that while I was working so hard to not neglect my
household, I was ignoring my needs as women.
I was married young at the age of 21,I had my first child at 21 also
(2002) and had my second child at 33 (2013).
All those years had went by and I just realized this year 2015 that I
missed the many important things about myself and just growing as a women. I began to feel sadden by what I had
lost. Now don't get me wrong, I love my
family and would not trade them for anything, but I must admit I did not know
myself anymore. I had forgotten what makes me happy.
My body had gone and I gained over 50 pounds from what my
weight range should be. Due to stress my
hair was starting to fall out, I had high blood pressure and to be honest my spirit was broken and I did not realize
it. With all of that, I continued to
function like a machine trying to get everything done, give love to my family
but neglecting to give it to myself. I
understand how people can suppress their feelings as mine had been pushed aside
for many years until now. It does not
matter if you have children or you are married, you do not have to lose
yourself in your family.
Take time out for
you because you deserve it, I deserve it.
You can still be a wife a mommy and still be in tune with yourself. You
can still be that sexy cosmopolitan girl you once were. Put your happiness as a first priority
because if you do not, your children will notice you are not happy, which will
just hurt them anyway. Having happy, healthy and energetic parents promotes
confidence in your children. I have
signed up to get on that gravy train:) I
have decided that I'm going to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight, I will
start writing (this blog) to express myself, love myself more, keep positive
people around me and more importantly, JUST DO WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY! I hope that anyone that is reading this will
do the same and remember you are not stuck and have the power to change
anything in your life you do not like. Happy Friday:)
